As I wrote yesterday, speaking in front of adults on Saturday when it wasn’t centered on my faith or the Bible was a step outside my comfort zone. Guess what? God knew. So, here are the moments that made me smile as I drove from Madison to Lawrenceburg, hung out at the convention, and drove back home.
- As I was driving and pondering my nerves about being in front of people talking about my journey and my acting on the dream of writing, KLOVE played the song “Stand in Your Love.” The chorus states that “my fear doesn’t stand a chance when I stand in Your love.” Great reminder.
- I tried to keep my thoughts off my nerves by singing. Alas, KLOVE was having its pledge drive, so I kept flipping between it and WIKI which is our local country station. Finally, I gave up and thought, “Maybe I still have a CD in.” I pushed play. These words came out. “…why would I let worries steal my breath…You give me everything I need.” Ah, the simple reminder of a Lauren Daigle song.
- While I sat up my book sale table, two retired Southwestern teachers came over to offer assistance and encouraging words. Thanks, Patti & Marsha!
- In the hall while I waited for the 10:00 session to end, two retired Madison teachers kept me company as we shared stories of old that brought much needed levity. Thanks, Susan and Kathy.
- My group had more than 5 and less than 20…which was my hope. I knew if it was large my nerves would really take over. In the group who attended were those same two Southwestern teachers as well as the retired principal who had supervised me while I did a medical leave in 6th grade. Friendly faces always lessen the nerves…. Thanks, Joyce, Marsha, and Patti!
- Those same Madison teachers invited me to join them at their lunch table.
- As I endured a longer-than-expected business session, my nephew and picture-book illustrator interacted with me via text messages. Thanks, Connor!
- When I finally headed home at 4:30, rain was falling. Ugh. I am not a fan of driving. I’m less a fan of driving solo. And….driving solo in the rain, not a fan at all! But, this girl wanted to go home, so off I went. All the way home, the rain never grew heavier than a good shower and often dwindled to steady sprinkles.
- In the midst of the heaviest rain, K-Love played “Eye of the Storm,” and I hear these lyrics. “In the eye of the storm, You remain in control…You alone are the anchor when my sails are torn. Your love surrounds me in the eye of the storm.” That one actually brought a chuckle.
- Then, as I drove the long and winding road from Lawrenceburg to Versailles, I noticed the trees on either side. Now, these were the same trees that stood on my way to Lawrenceburg, but my nerves kept me from noticing. Now, I noticed how lovely the redbuds were with their purple flowers, and how the other trees seemed to have lime green leaves. Now, to most, this would just be trees. But…when you’re known to your students by your three favorite colors of purple, orange, and lime green….you start laughing out loud.
- Finally, I left without eating breakfast due to nerves…just ate a few Munchos. The breakfast of champions? Nope, the breakfast of nervous drivers. Then, I was treated to the lunch of the convention, but by the time I reached the line the fresh fruit was pretty much just honeydew melon. Plus, I’m a big fan of potato salad, but I’m also really picky about my potato salad. This one was SWEET…ugh. The entree? Lunch meat. So, it kept my stomach from growling, but it wasn’t quite a tasty lunch. Now…can you believe this one? Taco Bell drive-thru was short. I kid you not. I only had one car between me and ordering. Then, they had my food ready as soon as I pulled up to the window. It’s a modern-day-mini-miracle.
So….those are the smiles that lessened my nerves and reminded me that even when I’m a bit anxious…He’s got me in the palm of His hand and will remind me as often as I need that I am loved. So, how has He made you smile?