For almost two years, I had become part of a duo. It was a long standing friendship that transitioned into dating. Both of us are “more mature” (read as OLD), so our relationship wasn’t a typical one. It was a low-key dating relationship, but it worked for us…until it didn’t.
Things happen. Stress causes distraction. Worries cause distance. Lack of communication causes tears. In April, he suggested we go “on a break”. I learned that “breaks” just confuse me, so in May…after experiencing a holiday without being at his family gathering…I knew it was time to call the break what is was. The end.
So, I’m learning to “be me” again. Just me. I’m taking myself out for meals and learning to make plans without waiting to see if “we” are doing something. It’s not an enjoyable experience, to be honest, but it’s part of life.
I’ll treasure the memories of the past two years, and sometimes I wonder if our paths will intertwine again in the future. However, for now, I’ll just keep putting one foot in front of the other….
I will….
- Start writing again because putting thoughts and stories into words bring me joy.
- Exercise regularly – I had been so consistent until overthinking stole my determination.
- Remind myself that I’m worth it….and one day someone will realize it.
- Find my identity in the One who created me and died for me rather than in being a part of a couple.
- Love myself – with all my quirks and insecurities.
- Be me. Whoever that is and whoever I will become.
Jodi Lea Pflaumer, Author 